confession

when i was 19 i had this job at a gas station. i knew fuck all about cars. they would come in and say 'fill it up and check my oil'. i would look under the hood and most of the time i couldn't find the oil stick so i would tell the driver 'yeah you are ok'. sometimes they would tip me and i would feel bad because i had lied. i was a shit gas station attendant but i lasted the entire summer. on my lunch break i used to sit outside of the car wash and watch the people in their cars as the machines washed them. sometimes depending on my mood i would pray to god and ask him to kill them.